MIA...I am back and Aerosmith Suprise

So sorry to be MIA for a while...although it was by accident (as I forgot my laptop and my hubby's laptop does not have a card reader so I could not post pictures) I think I really needed it to get back in prespective.

I have no idea why I would let one bully and some unloyal friends change ME....that is not ME at all. I have never put up with bullys or cliques...I came from a very small town where there was "the group" and new people were on the outside...well that was until they met me and I always befriended them no matter what anyone else thought. Now was this EASY...NO WAY and in middle school it got pretty bad as "the group" turned on me...and yes this hurt...but because of the love and self confidence I had learned from my family I did not let it change my way of thinking. So no way am I going to let a bully stand in my way now. I had a lot of time to think and lets see this is how my last few years have been full of change and growing as a family. The last 5 years we have been in the adoption process....four of those years ended with a happy family of four. During this last year of 2009 we had an adoption dream smashed and I learned so much about people turning on you for no reason at all. Hard to believe that because of the adoption community I had grown to love and feel like were my second family...my family was being threatened....I think I was in SHOCK...that we would be attacked for just being a happy family. I knew at that point I had to go into shut down mode to protect my family...and for those of you who have met me you know I am an open book...so shuting down and not expressing my feelings and my side of the story well was tough. So many changes and things learned in 2009. We took the leap and moved to a differant state. We have been so blessed to have this time as a family of four to live each day celebrating each other.

I will be alot more protective of my family, my emotions, and my trust of others but I want my children to see that their Mommy and Daddy will stand up for this family no matter what! We are not going to cower down or feel bad for being so happy and blessed in life! My life now may seem like a fairy tale to me and you...but beleive me we put in the hard work it takes to get to where we are now the first 6 years of our marriage. We believe in each other and we support each other with all we have...we love each other unconditionally...and we always look for the FUN in not only our wild vacations but our everyday life. I feel 100% confident that if there was an American family Idol....we could win. This is not all just a show...we really do LOVE our lifes and enjoy this time being parents!


I guess I could have just said this...I AM BACK...I WILL SURVIVE...I AM THE QUEEN OF MY CASTLE...!!!

Now for my SUPRISE BIRTHDAY PRESENT...I am amazed by the love my husband shows for me and his persistence to try an suprise me. One of my faults is I am very hard to suprise and sometimes even ruin my own suprises, but not this year! It was a strange morning as I was overwhelmed as always coming home from a three week trip. I woke up to find my hubby gone....he is a car wash freak...hehe...so i figured he was out washing the cars. Then I get a strange text from Cassie that she is almost at my house with my bday gift. Meanwhile I had asked Shawn to pick me up some lunch from Pot Bellys. I was visiting with Cassie when Shawn came in with my lunch. Cassie only had 30 min so I was going to wait to eat when she left so I could visit with her. All of a sudden she says I think I need part of your sandwhich because I have not eaten today...this is a NORMAL thing for Cassie to share my food so I went over and dumped out the bag of food. I did not even look at what came out of the bag I just went to cutting up the sandwhich...Cassie started acting really goofy and giggling...I was trying to tell her about my Gall Bladder issues and she was just laughing...then she picked up an envelope and said what is this??? I opened it to find AEROSMITH concert tickets for tonight for me and Cassie....Oh yea we hugged and giggled just like teens....and did I mention I have the greatest husband on the planet??? Really the way he gives his love to me...and is always looking for a way to suprise me and see me SMILE...is just amazing. You got me honey....and I am on top of the world because of it! Oh and I was too excited to even eat my lunch!